Surviving confinement alone

l feel persuaded to write on this. My latest postpartum experience differed remarkably from the former two.  Previously I had  full time carers to look after my needs and my newborns'. but this time I had to do it solo. Not to mention I have another two kids to look after.  both my mom and mom in laws are still working. My gran is already too old to care for us. My maid was due for her  3 months term  break around that time. Therefore I pre planned my confinement arrangement 2 - 3 months prior.

1 ) the elder kids

I didn't think I could handle three kids at the same time when i was supposed to recuperate from the delivery aftermath. ( but I have proven I  actually could haha)
So 2 weeks prior to my due date I began my maternity leave.  We enrolled Harris to a nearby preschool 1 week before delivery (on our 7th engagement anniversary to be exact) . we initially planned to send Sarah to a babysitter house who lives opposite ours. but the plan was scrapped off eventually  as Sarah seemed not ready to be sent away  plus (after testing for a day or two post partum)  I was able to look after her after all. hehe. though not easy, but manageable.

2) the part time domestic helper

I did look around for a confinement lady. and didn't find one that tailored to my need and budget. ( RM 3k for a 2 weeks service seemed too much)  but there were still  plan b which I think is better. after all, me being me ,who never condone to the traditional confinement rules, getting a proper confinement lady is quite a waste of money. haha. a helper is what i need. we were lucky to be able to convince a day time maid to stay with  us for 3 nights a week to help us with the house chores. otherwise tongkang pecah la rumah hihi..
she mainly look after the house and sarah. and she was only available after week 3 post delivery.  so prior to that ( except for the  first 2 3 days  when my husband was still around) I was totally on my own.
During these days, mr hubby had abruptly changed to be a very effective housemaid/ chauffeur/ shopper and many other domestic posts. I was both thankful and impressed.  lolz.  but I ve got to say his working efficacy and performance was inversely proportional to mine over time.  mentang2 la bini ni mobile n x brp berpantang. lolz. gradually he left the house chores back to me except for the shopping and the chauffeuring part . lolz. my mom also did come by for a while after work ( if she didnt have any other programmes/duties) helping me tending to the baby, particularly during the first few weeks. alhamdulillah.

3) post partum friendly baby equipments

these are rather important and very very very helpful when you have to care for your baby yourself during the delicate days. General rules post delivery mom shouldn't be bending down or squatting too much ( in fact I believe the pantang hardcore people prohibit this all together until certain period of time)
so we bought these :

a bathtub stand. we had had that white baby support since Harris' time.previously, most of the time my older newborns were bathed by my maid/mom/gran. I would only bathe them myself once in a while and a stool would suffice as an extra helping tool. but  this time, since it s gonna be a twice daily routine, i need the bathtub stand.  so i bought it online   (much cheaper than the ones sold in the local baby outlets)

changing table . bought this during my impromptu solo visit to ikea at 9 months preggie age! everone was concerned and offered to help me with the trolley ,queuing and all (except for the ikea staffs themselves, ironically. at least not until i asked them to help with the loading and unloading) good to see there are still many noble-hearted Malaysians!

the nursing pillow. really a great help too for a more comfortable posture during nursing.

4. confinement gadgets

i may not observe all the malay confinement rules but i did follow some which i think is practical in reshaping your body and skin contour as long as it doesn't involve oral jamu /herbs. 

i used leesa's girdles and body contour gel for postpartum body shaping. the packet with the chinese writing is a mix of chinese herbs i used for a more refreshing hot shower. bought it from my masseuse.  

this is my 'batu tungku'. an electric water pillow that can be heated ( given by my grandma).  during previous confinements i did use the real batu tungku wrapped in some sort of leaves. but that would be a bit too tedious for me to do by myself daily. 

All in all, it was a very challenging but no less wonderful experience for me. i was tired for sure, but it makes me value motherhood more. and allowed me to spend more time with my kids as a mother should be. I owed them this because of work commitment, and  I'm going to have to leave them again for the very same reason. I hope my children would understand.

soon babies.  we'll be chillaxing more. for now, mommy have to strive to become paediatrician first, muah muahx.

The arrival of Hannah

Praise be to Allah. The birth of Hannah is like a dawning sunrise to my life. Alhamdulillah. I am a happy mother today.

I believe this is the first time I wrote about my 3rd pregnancy. I first discovered I was pregnant encore for the 3rd time  on november 17th 2013. My feeling? Honestly it was a cocktail. Surprised, scared, why too soon? What would they think? Two is already a headache are we capable of three, now? I hugged my husband, took a deep breath and told him the news. He was much calmer and said he's happy about it and welcomed a third child all the same. Even at that moment. A pillar that I really needed then. And he was one. Still is.

So life went on.  I kept the news to myself (apart from my husband) for quite a while. I had the worst URTI in my life during the early days. For good three weeks I tried to avoid taking any form of medicine as I was still in the first trimester.  but it just got worse over time.   I took a course of cefuroxime eventually. I also suffered from a very bad rhinitis almost throughout the pregnancy, especially during the first half .with a farfetched wide  jobscope and hectic, stressful on-calls,  It was, in a way, physically challenging. But alhamdulillah,  I was free from morning sickness and emesis gravidarum. ( though there was another kind of 'morning sickness' occured on most of the working days of which had nothing to do with my gravid uterus. Huh!)
I didn't make it public till I was over 4 months pregnant.  Bump had started to show up a little and I think I should at that point tell my colleagues. So they knew. And many congratulated sincerely. Alhamdulillah.

My first scan  was around 9 week+ . Parametres were corresponding well with gestational age. Just  like the previous pregnancies, I did not encounter any major problems while bearing little hannah inside. My kk follow ups went smooth sailing all the way.

Except for 1 thing. She was a little bit small. We first noticed it when I booked my obstetrician around 24 weeks ( dr suraya of ksh again :))) ) a scan at that time revealed that her parametres were about 2-3 weeks lagged from her supposed age. However  based on the repeated scan two weeks later  she seemed to have caught up.  So, apart from the bad daily sneezing and annoying superior,  all went well again.

Then during my 3rd trimester scan  at 34 week poa by a colleague, she was found to be small again. Parametres was just about 30-31 weeks weighing about 1.7 kg. A scan by an obstetrician 3 days later confirmed this findings.  But other things were good. The fluid seemed adequate, placenta looked healthy, and blood flow through the placenta were excellent.  Eversince, I was given  2 weekly appointment with obsterician. Despite being a lil bit small for her age, she's  growing steadily, following the centile chart. She s otherwise fine all the way. As one of the  specialists ( dr melati) put it, may be she's just petite. Nothing wrong with that. She was estimated to be 2.1 kg by 36th week, 2.5 kg by 38th, and 2.85 kg 2 days before delivery at 39week6 days.

I took maternity leave 2 weeks earlier than my edd. We were in the process of shifting places too at that  time plus my maid was about to go back  for a long end of term break . I needed to settle a few things before the baby popped out, like enrolling my first born to pre school.

I had irregular painful contraction since 39 weeks but it merely came and go in paroxysmal pattern. Within that seven days or so, I woke up with the tinge of butterfly in my stomach wondering could this be the day ? At this point I had almost zero sadness and things were  pleasurable . I remember feeling this pleasant anticipation each day and closed my eye at the end of the day thinking may be she d come out tomorrow.

I was a bit confused when I should go to hospital initially. At what frequency and intensity of pain should I packed up for hospital ? The irregular bouts of contraction was playing trick on me. Sometime it was as frequent as every 3 to 4 minutes lasting like 20seconds , before gradually dissappearing for like 3-4 hours. This kept giving me false alarms, that I ended up in the hospital 2 days before edd. I was reassured and went back again.
I went again on my due date as I was advised not to allow post date. I was lying on the hospital bed by 12 noon and was induced with prostin by 12.30.  Pain began to be more consistent,  more frequent and more intense gradually. I had my loving husband by my side all the way and was joined by an ex primary school mate a while later. He was warded at that point of time too. I have to say, these two men helped taking my mind off the pain by chitchatting away. He was with us for more than 3 hours and eventually left ( for iftar - at home! ). So it was me and my husband again with nothing much left to say. My mind started to refocus on the pain and after 15 minutes I asked for a nubain.  Nubain was good. I felt light headed, drowsy, calm,  more clingy to hubby and much less in pain. This lasted for a good 4  hours before the contraction became agonisingly painful again. Hub was in the bathroom when it first came, to the point i shed tears. And when he came out, he called out for the nurse to have a look. I asked for another dose of nubain but the nurse was reluctant to give as it should be at 6 hour interval. She  offered to bring me to the labour room instead,  so that I could inhale the laughing gas ( nitrous oxide). I immediately agreed to this. 

We were in labour room by 10 30 pm. Contraction was searing and tearing my stomach apart. The initial os was about 4-5 cm effaced. By the next hour I was crying hopelessly in the labour room. All the time reciting zikir like the simple 'Allah' and the one that was recited by prophet  yunus 'lailaha illa anta subhanaka inna kuntu mina zoolimin'. Continuous head and back massage from the husband , tummy massage and soothing voice of guidance from the midwife was a big  -huge- help at that moment.  people always told me that the entanox was just a waste of time. For a long time, even with two previous labours, I believed this.  But this time i realised you have to do it right to make it work. It was all about timing when to inhale and when to hold your breath. I wouldnt have been able to do it without the midwife guidance ( when you were in such pain it was hard to take control of everything, even yourself!)
You see, this labour experience was rather different from the previous two. 

1) previous pregnancies, I had water break first before contraction pain. This time, I needed to be induced to go  into labour and even up the point that written above ,the amniotic sac was still intact!

2) I received epidural analgesia for the  former labours.  Though there were mishaps in both occasions ( harris - epidural jab was a bit too late. I went into 2nd stage right after. So I felt the strong painful contraction but not the bearing down pain. As with sarah, I had epidural from the beginning but it got blocked right before 2nd stage so I felt the bearing down pain but not the maximally intensified contraction pain.

This time I chose to try to do it without epidural analgesia. Hahaha kinda bad choice but I didn't regret it. It gave me a new level of confidence and I know I can bear such pain.

After 12 midnight the pain was so excruciating I was screaming  ( within tolerable range I think , lolz. This is one of the reason I chose to deliver in private centre. I couldn't bear hearing the ladies in adjacent cubicles screaming and all the supposedly encouraging shoutings from the doctors/midwives. I need the quiet and calm ambience.  So if there s anyone need to  scream it would be only me. Just me. Hehe). The doctor was called immediately.  Os was already 8-9 cm. Membrane was bulging  but  for goodness sake it just  wouldnt burst by itself!
Dr suraya attended calmly and ruptured the membrane with a hook. There was sudden temporary relief of pain while the liquour gushed as if coming out from a water hose . But not for long. I then knew the baby was about to come out. I could feel her head down within my pelvic cavity and crowned with each push.  The pain was indescribable.  I was among the luckiest not to have to experience it too long. Though it felt like forever,  it was just a less than 10 minutes deal. And there,   My 3rd baby was delivered and was put on my belly at 0025 on july 17th 2014. 25 minutes  exceeding her due date ;)  alhamdulillah , she was a beautiful perfect baby girl with excellent APGAR score. She weighed 2.86 kg. So the estimation was almost accurate! I was so tired post delivery that all I wanted to do was to sleep. I didn't have any tear . Just received 1 lap  of suture to catch a bleeder.

The ambience was just as I dreamt of. Calm, surreal and filled with tons of love. Everytime I delivered there would be this feeling of enormous gratitude to Allah and also as if our marital bond was tightened and upgraded to a new level. I didnt just say it. But  by God,  I can feel it does.

Our little baby was nursed under radiant warmer initially, as she was slightly and transiently tachypnoiec. Her initial blood glucose was also quite low. It was 1.5 mmol/l . I consented for formula milk enteral feed as a rescue measure, and since it was significantly low, we decided for  immediate intravenous dextrose bolus  too ( though the reading just prior to bolus was actually 3mmol/l) followed by maintenance infusion. She was fed via ryles tube as they were worried she might aspirate from the rapid breathing. But I breast fed her anyway ( the  breast milk was very scarce in amount at this point and she wasn't too tachypnoiec afterall ,  hence I felt it would be safe to do so ).  I let them continued enteral feeding via ryle's tube throughout the night as I didn't want to risk another episode of hypoglycaemia.

She was  perfectly well the next morning. We took off all the 'wires'  from her, put her in a cot and roomed her in with me. Yeay!

Her haematological investigations came back normal. Full blood count and film, crp ( though I dont see the point of performing this before 12 hours of life,
G6pd and cord tsh test : all were perfecto.

We were allowed home by noon.

it was a wonderful  journey bearing and giving birth to this lil baby. It s even more wonderful to have her in my arm , so tender and pure.

We name her  after one of the greatest women in  history, the mother of Maryam / mary : Hannah

Mommy loves you dearly little Hannah ..

Ibabbd

It s been a bad bad day.
dear lord give some strength.

Home is where the heart is

Been going through a lot of turmoils for the past 1 year.  Mean and selfish people were everywhere.  But the gift of a beautiful family and a handful of  rezeki has always surpassed these negativity in life. 
Kids and hubbay are away for the evening. Bibik 'loaned' to mom's house.  So am left alone supposedly to study . But too bored and feel like sharing these pics. Humble abode but just like what I dream of. Or at least its going the right track as I ve always dreamt of. Haha. 

I need to do something with this conner. Next furniture hunting wd definitely be a shelves w cabinets. Inshaallah.

my favourite place

bff

Back to Work

will  be going back to work tomorrow.

after three months off work, my mind has gotten rusty on the academic and doctor-ish stuff. will do a recap with the house officers as my mentors  tomorrow. hihi.
baby sarah, take care
Harris dear, do take a good care of your little sis while i'm gone.

will be missing you both awfully much tomorrow morning :(

making home and home made cooking

Confinement leave is really a blessing. though i have to waste a total of 40 days at home .
But thanks to my  three months leave, I have learnt about  new passion. cooking and baking! this hobby has been rather viral i guess. everyone is suddenly into it. i'm not a cooking type really, and apparently my husband is ok with that ( thank God). but i can see he really lightened up when i cooked or baked for him.the signs were very subtle but having been with him for 4  years, i  can detect it well :P

broccopoulet oregano soup - made when my maid was on leave

salmon pasta - a bit dry . should have made it creamier

Raclette - with russet potato, baby carrot, salami, mashed potato, frankfurter (wish we had merguez instead) 

ahh this is my favourite - egg benedict!

Salmon risotto - got inspired after watching masterchef 

chocolate pavlova - the meringue collapsed in half , cream wasn't whipped enough, but the taste was heavenly good!

this is my version of  turkey and egg sandwich

and my favourite drink - le creme chocolat :) 

we are also busy renovating  our new house in Kota SAS.  so far we are only installing kitchen cabinets, grills, curtains,  electrical appliances, and grass in the backyard .will buy some basic furnitures after everything above is completely done.
and oh , we painted our kids' room too ! can hardly wait to move in. well, it's probably will just be a weekend home for now. am thinking of making it as a guest house as well, since we're not staying there all the time.

Harris' room - stars made by 80%  mommy 20%  papa

Sarah's room- too tired to do murals - perhaps will resort to stickers, later

sneak peak to our 90% completed kitchen - so looking forward to play with these toys! wait for more foods;)

newborn photoshoot

What to do when you are bound to confine at home for 40 days?  baby-caming!

Sneak peek of Sarah's newborn photo-shoot at Ummu Harris studio ;-)

latest gadget

Husband bought me a new toy! it's a freestyle y'all.been longing for this since i began to indulge in the breastfeeding world. now it's mine. 

I used spectra 3 during my breastfeeding adventure with Harris. It was good but the minus point is , that it's quite bulky. I was approached somewhere last year by a hospital staff asking me regarding good breast pumps with affordable price. i recommended spectra 3 to her, she wanted to have a look. So I showed her. Then she asked me: do you mind selling yours to me?  I was quite taken aback initially as I didn't see it coming ( thought she'd want me to buy for her a new one) . But i agreed anyway :p mainly because I want a good reason to buy this one below  for my next baby. hihi.       

May little Sarah benefit from this investment Inshaallah.       

             

The newly arrived parcel

my freestyle debut - 4 oz in 10 minutes while breastfeeding at home.. interesting!

Sarah @ Day 7 of life - home photoshoot

The birth of Sarah

Our second angel has landed on earth. Praises be to God.

I was admitted at 35 week 6 days for premature contraction which turned out to be a false labour. ever since, my Braxton Hicks became more frequent though still irregular. This went on uneventful  until the night of 19/09/2012 .

At around 9.30 p.m , I felt a sudden unprovoked leak. couldn't be urinary incontinence as i just came out from the bathroom. Then it hit me ; has the time come? is it now? By the time the second surge came out, it was enough to convince me. My water just broke.

I told my husband. He then quickly packed our stuff to go to the hospital. we have packed most of the stuff, just needed a final add-ons  here and there. by 10.15 p.m., we arrived in KSH.  I came here as I have booked my obstetrician, Dr Suraya ( the same doctor who delivered Harris). When we arrived at the registration counter, they brought us to the labour room. Only then they told us there were no more room left. I was quite surprised and disappointed at that time as I had called earlier before reaching there to inform them that I was on my way and was in labour .If I were to deliver there, the labour room itself would be my room.  Abrupt decision had to be made then.

i told the nurse to proceed with the CTG and to check my cervical dilatation. The CTG was fine and os was about 3 cm effaced but station was still high. After discussion with my husband and my parents, We decided to find another centre, and the choice was Darul Makmur Medical Centre.

It was about 10 to 15 minutes drive between the two hospitals, and it was raining heavily. Alhamdulillah we managed to arrive there safely. We were also joined by my parents and the co-owner of the hospital later ( I sometimes do locum at his other clinic).  By 11 pm, I was in  their labour room . Contraction had become more regular but still very mild.

My attending obstetrician was there within 5 minutes, It was Dr Roziah. The initial CTG was reactive. Liquour was gushing out like water hose every time i felt stronger contraction. I requested for epidural again this time. it was successful after two attempts. I received a spinal bolus too. Immediately after the procedure , my body was itching all over.  When the anaesthetist saw me scratching, he immediately told me that it was a common side effect of the fentanyl - the opioid used in the epidural cocktail - apparently if you happen to have it you just have to bear with it as anti histamine won't work to stop the pruritus. Pitocin was initiated right after the epidural procedure.

Things were fine until 3.30 a.m. (  i could pose for pictures,chatting with hubby, the doctors and nurses casually, reciting surah Maryam (Mary) via iQuran Pro on my phone almost pain free) . The fentanyl infusion kept on beeping signifying there was interruption with the flow.  Pitocin concentration was increased gradually every hour.  At that point, My baby's CTG  began to look less desirable.initially it showed good baseline variability  but with no obvious acceleration within 20 minutes, then it slowly got worse. there were a few type 1 decelerations  which became more apparent overtime.The last few decelarations even had saw-toothed appearance  with significant bradycardia each time (saw toothed or sinusoidal decelaration as i remember from my O&G days, might signify abruptio placenta). Only God knows how terrified I was then, though outwardly i tried to look as composed as i could manage. my pitocin concentration was reduced back to half and i tried changing my position from supine to right lateral  position, and alhamdulillah it worked. The CTG became reactive again and i was able to avoid surgery :) It could be the hyperstimulation from the pitocin or it could also be due to significantly reduced venous return as the CTG change was almost immediate by changing position.

By this time, I am pretty sure that the epidural infusion had failed. i felt the contraction pain which was already strong. i cringed silently, my fingers gripped my husband's so firmly each time. through out the labour, i recited prophet Yunus' (Jonah) doa' while he was inside the whale repeatedly ( my grandma kept on reminding me to do this  since the false labour ).

By 4.55 a.m. I had the urge to bear down. the doctor checked my opening and told me I was all set to push my baby out. tears suddenly streamed down. it's not the pain that triggered it I swear - but mixed feeling of  fear, joy, hopelessness, and doubts  over my own self confidence.

I gathered all energy left within, held my two legs without being told, breathed long and deep, and began to push. it was really agonising when the baby's head had crowned but you couldn't push at that time as there was no contraction.It was not easy. I needed all the moral support i could get  from the people around me and i was very lucky as they were really encouraging and soft spoken.  Husband was at my head, hugging, kissing my forehead and wiping my tears. Retrospectively, I  feel sorry for some moms who had traumatising experiences in the labour room, being scolded by the staffs for not pushing properly or for feeling hopeless. It would be the last thing you need to hear at that time. personally, i fell that positive encouragement was really vital and it does help.After 10 minutes battling, with one final push ( which was accompanied by a scream - but only during that last push :p)  , My second baby was born (at 5.05 am 20th of September  2012 ).

They put her on my chest. I dried and stimulated her myself with minimal help. My first thought when I saw her - she looks like a newborn Harris, only bigger.  It was so surreal. I was so mesmerised by her that I forgot that my placenta was still inside. haha. but they didn't need me to push that hard to bring it out :P
I reluctantly handed her to the staff for further nursing care. She experienced mild transient tachypnoea due to hypothermia ( the labour room was chilly cold at  5 o clock in the morning).She was put  under the radiant warmer and was given headbox oxygen for a while as a supportive care. She was fine after five minutes.

We were discharged home the same day. I was a bit anxious to go home as I wasn't sure of Harris' acceptance towards this new addition to our family. But Alhamdulillah, he adjusted himself to this new environment rather immediately. he was very welcoming and loving towards his little sister, and he doesn't mind me nursing or holding her, though once in a while when the baby was not on my lap, he'd come to me, hugging, cuddling and kissing me as if he's been longing to that the whole day. thank you Harris for being considerate and understanding.  I love you just as much.

We name our little baby, Sarah :)

Insyaallah, you'll be a well nurtured and honourable woman both in this world and hereafter. May both of you - my children - be  among the solehiin (the pious) . amiin.

je t'aime mes petits bonheur

Sarah's little foot

Day 10 of life

39 week and standing

:)

humble abode

would this be nice ? 

Baby jeers

last two weeks - at 35 week 6 days of pregnancy age ( on August 26th 2012) -  I was actually admitted for premature contraction. I have been having Brixton Hick's  since late 33th week but on that particular day the contractions were very regular, as frequent as  every 10 minutes.

CTG was reactive with mild contraction  about 3-4 within that half an hour.  I thought I was going into labour the next day. fortunately I wasn't. Hence I was discharged after overnight observation in ward, MC for 1 week and  back to work at 37 week :)

now at 37 week 6 days, still no signs of labour. did another scan at about 37 week 2 days during appointment with HOD of O&G dept. little B's estimated weight is about 3 Kg , both by clinical palpation and by scan.

May Allah ease  the birthing process and grant us miraculous, meaningful and blessed  life ahead. Inshaallah.

Anne Gedde's work piece

Phil & Teds explorer

preparation for baby number two - get a tandem pushchair :p

My second pregnancy

i think it's high time i should sum up about my current being for the past 9 months. Pregnant encore.
i confirmed my suspicion of conceiving baby number 2 when my POA ( period of amennorhea) was about 5 week +

25th january 2012 pic taken at 8.15 am in the mo oncall room :) 

it's a mixed feeling all over again. is it too soon? are we ready for family member number four? but very excited all the same !

this pregnancy , i feel a bit different compared to the previous one. within the first trimester I was nauseous almost everyday and had two emetic episodes ( I had none when I was with Harris). 2nd trimester, I was easily breathless by 21st week.NYHA class 2 gradually escalated to 3 overtime  i supposed.  diaphragmatic splinting was rather early.

Baby started kicking at about 17 weeks. more or less the same like the first one in term of timing.

On-calls ( though never exceeded 5 per month ) were so tiring and by 30th week and above it had begun to take its toll on my well being significantly. I stopped doing calls by 32 weeks.the Post call  effect during the  last on-call i did was horrible. I could barely walk, gasping for air and every muscle attached to my bones was aching. 

Legs cramp was ( still is) a norm in the morning. really torturing. Couldn't lie on my back for more than 30 seconds due to the pressure effect on the lumbar vertebrae.

baby began to drop down by 33 week. therefore I could breathe better after that! but then the urinary frequency and stress incontinence worsens.

I did antenatal sonography for 6 times already so far. the last one was a 3D scan at KSH ( 6,11,17,24,30, 32 week) - well, there is no need for  such  frequent scans really ( once every trimester would suffice) but i just wanna have a peep at my baby ;-)

Braxton Hicks contractions began at about 33th week.

now at 35 week plus, fundal height correlates  well with gestational age, baby is in cephalic presentation, already 1/5th engaged , fetal limbs facing right, spine on the left. Sometimes, baby is kicking so hard that her fetal parts are visible and palpable  per abdomen.


I hope everything would turn out well. Mommy is soo looking forward to meet you in a month time little b ;) muahx

getting on my nerve

haiihh. you think you are the elitists. when you are just simply  hard core supporters like those on the other side. when people commented against your ridiculous generalisation about something, you said they are already non salvageable and not up to par to your level of thinking in debating such matters.
you  think you know politics like the back of your hands?  then think again. because from most of this bunch of self claimed elitists' written statements , all I can deduct is, you are exactly as shortsighted as those you go against if not worse.  basically, you are blinded by your political belief to see reasoning even if you are plainly at fault.
yeah, i have been patient too long and  now  have gotten too annoyed to ignore when they keep on posting stupid and illogical statuses.

Reflection

salam o dear valued guests of blog bliss.

Ramadhan mubarak to those who are observing it . May this month bring us enormous and unexpected blessings inshaallah.

blessed life. do we live one? Only God knows. when you are tried with crisis you began to question whether this is merely a trial or it's a sign that your life is not blessed? perhaps because of your previous deeds. i have no answer to that.  but one thing i'm sure of, we should turn to God nevertheless,regardless  which one is the cause :)

little beau in 3 months

18 months old

19 months

19 months with his Chinese attire

20 months old!

he's growing up so fast. he speaks in words and jargon equally alot , he can imitate songs and rhymes, he can count, and he is expecting a new sibling soon :-)

savage garden weekend.

Endurance

What a test.. O lord.. :(

racletting again!

and it was soo fulfilling. had a new year dinner with my close pals last night at chez moi and it was awesome. we have chefs amongst us who can cook better than the masterchef participants ( exaggerate  giler) . anyway, got the opportunity to eat raclette again ( thanks to izy who bought the cheese) last night and encore, this evening with husband.  

this year's resolution : 

1. MRCPCh part 1 

2. NEW home (hopefully)

3. Wish to start a business ( yo yo je haha) 

4. New work place? in or out? hmm:)

5. Better Servant to Allah, better wife to husband, better mom to son, better me for family, better doctor, better friend.

Insyaallah. how about you?