coming to term

I don't know about you, but I only began to feel like a full grown adult after I started buying properties. I still felt young when i first get married, feeling a bit more mature after I found out I was pregnant, motherly after Harris was born, but still more or less clinging to parents / other family members. but now, as we began to deal with those people like sales advisers, corporate lawyers, bankers and stuff - on our own... , I can't help but feeling.. nervous, whenever I have time to think deeply about it.  I am becoming the adult that  I previously, only observed. Now , I am one of them.

I really really hope both me and husband could be  great parents to Harris ( and hopefully his later siblings ).

no turning back. we are adults now.

jerk n jerkiness

what i feel like doing? singing on top of my lung n dancing in the middle of the road :) call me crazy, but im sure that could release this looong bottled feeling i have inside. only then, i could say.. 'yeeaahh... im feeling good' :)




DANCING in the moonlite sounds nice dontcha think? hahah

ya Rabbi.

diagnoses

one side of life : constrictive pericarditis

had been encased in a hard fibrosed shell for quite a while that i failed to expand to accommodate adequate useful input.

chronically it has now invaded the inner me that i am unable to pump out any profitable output too. outcome would be fatal if untreated. so please do.

other side of life : mildly anaemic otherwise pretty healthy

supportive treatment and assurance are the management of choice

a la peaceful melody

"There’s no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours"


i love this bit of that song :-)

you'll never walk alone;-)

last weekend main futsal for college. igtkan indoor, sekali open court la plak. i look like a lobster panggang now. muka merah cam malar rash.x lame lagi ceklat. duh!

senior futsal team was really spectacular. junior team too actually. senior team punye skill and control bagus. where as junior team stamina kuat and they played with speed.congrats to both teams. our team? hehehe i was quite disappointed really. i feel like we played better during practice matches. if only time could be rewinded... sigh. pas ni xde da kot chance untuk join tournament2 ni. doktor2 pompuan cm x main je futsal. n x tau la suami bg ke x nnt. harap2 klu ade tournament die bg la:P i really enjoy playing it. more than netball or any other girlish sports... one thing for sure, ukhwah senior year mmg jadi best giler la akhir2 ni. at least that's how i feel. most of my colleagues are really really nice and kind hearted types. well, there are a few shallow and vain and superficial types here and there but as far as my happiness is concerned, they are quite irrelevant really.

james, my current group mate told me about the 'steven gerrard songs' the other day. "i don't really like Liverpool but i like their songs a lot!" so said the Die Hard AC fan i.e Kaka's idoliser :P blame him, i keep on humming these two songs these days..

(in que serra serra tune)
steve gerrard gerrard
he kicks the ball 40 yards
he's better than fat lampard
steve gerrard gerrard

(in dennis van hauten's can't take my eyes off you tune;) )
Oh Steven Gerrard
Because he hates Man U
Oh Steven Gerrard
He hates the Blue shite too
Oh Steven Gerrard
You’re a Red through and through


ok im delving quite deep into football mode now. haha.

ps ; risau lak byk mende x settle lg. wedding date dah dekat...