humble abode

would this be nice ? 

Baby jeers

last two weeks - at 35 week 6 days of pregnancy age ( on August 26th 2012) -  I was actually admitted for premature contraction. I have been having Brixton Hick's  since late 33th week but on that particular day the contractions were very regular, as frequent as  every 10 minutes.

CTG was reactive with mild contraction  about 3-4 within that half an hour.  I thought I was going into labour the next day. fortunately I wasn't. Hence I was discharged after overnight observation in ward, MC for 1 week and  back to work at 37 week :)

now at 37 week 6 days, still no signs of labour. did another scan at about 37 week 2 days during appointment with HOD of O&G dept. little B's estimated weight is about 3 Kg , both by clinical palpation and by scan.

May Allah ease  the birthing process and grant us miraculous, meaningful and blessed  life ahead. Inshaallah.

Anne Gedde's work piece

Phil & Teds explorer

preparation for baby number two - get a tandem pushchair :p

My second pregnancy

i think it's high time i should sum up about my current being for the past 9 months. Pregnant encore.
i confirmed my suspicion of conceiving baby number 2 when my POA ( period of amennorhea) was about 5 week +

25th january 2012 pic taken at 8.15 am in the mo oncall room :) 

it's a mixed feeling all over again. is it too soon? are we ready for family member number four? but very excited all the same !

this pregnancy , i feel a bit different compared to the previous one. within the first trimester I was nauseous almost everyday and had two emetic episodes ( I had none when I was with Harris). 2nd trimester, I was easily breathless by 21st week.NYHA class 2 gradually escalated to 3 overtime  i supposed.  diaphragmatic splinting was rather early.

Baby started kicking at about 17 weeks. more or less the same like the first one in term of timing.

On-calls ( though never exceeded 5 per month ) were so tiring and by 30th week and above it had begun to take its toll on my well being significantly. I stopped doing calls by 32 weeks.the Post call  effect during the  last on-call i did was horrible. I could barely walk, gasping for air and every muscle attached to my bones was aching. 

Legs cramp was ( still is) a norm in the morning. really torturing. Couldn't lie on my back for more than 30 seconds due to the pressure effect on the lumbar vertebrae.

baby began to drop down by 33 week. therefore I could breathe better after that! but then the urinary frequency and stress incontinence worsens.

I did antenatal sonography for 6 times already so far. the last one was a 3D scan at KSH ( 6,11,17,24,30, 32 week) - well, there is no need for  such  frequent scans really ( once every trimester would suffice) but i just wanna have a peep at my baby ;-)

Braxton Hicks contractions began at about 33th week.

now at 35 week plus, fundal height correlates  well with gestational age, baby is in cephalic presentation, already 1/5th engaged , fetal limbs facing right, spine on the left. Sometimes, baby is kicking so hard that her fetal parts are visible and palpable  per abdomen.


I hope everything would turn out well. Mommy is soo looking forward to meet you in a month time little b ;) muahx

getting on my nerve

haiihh. you think you are the elitists. when you are just simply  hard core supporters like those on the other side. when people commented against your ridiculous generalisation about something, you said they are already non salvageable and not up to par to your level of thinking in debating such matters.
you  think you know politics like the back of your hands?  then think again. because from most of this bunch of self claimed elitists' written statements , all I can deduct is, you are exactly as shortsighted as those you go against if not worse.  basically, you are blinded by your political belief to see reasoning even if you are plainly at fault.
yeah, i have been patient too long and  now  have gotten too annoyed to ignore when they keep on posting stupid and illogical statuses.

Reflection

salam o dear valued guests of blog bliss.

Ramadhan mubarak to those who are observing it . May this month bring us enormous and unexpected blessings inshaallah.

blessed life. do we live one? Only God knows. when you are tried with crisis you began to question whether this is merely a trial or it's a sign that your life is not blessed? perhaps because of your previous deeds. i have no answer to that.  but one thing i'm sure of, we should turn to God nevertheless,regardless  which one is the cause :)

little beau in 3 months

18 months old

19 months

19 months with his Chinese attire

20 months old!

he's growing up so fast. he speaks in words and jargon equally alot , he can imitate songs and rhymes, he can count, and he is expecting a new sibling soon :-)

savage garden weekend.

Endurance

What a test.. O lord.. :(

racletting again!

and it was soo fulfilling. had a new year dinner with my close pals last night at chez moi and it was awesome. we have chefs amongst us who can cook better than the masterchef participants ( exaggerate  giler) . anyway, got the opportunity to eat raclette again ( thanks to izy who bought the cheese) last night and encore, this evening with husband.  

this year's resolution : 

1. MRCPCh part 1 

2. NEW home (hopefully)

3. Wish to start a business ( yo yo je haha) 

4. New work place? in or out? hmm:)

5. Better Servant to Allah, better wife to husband, better mom to son, better me for family, better doctor, better friend.

Insyaallah. how about you?

Kota SAS

just now, went to kota sas to claim my deposit cheque. took the opportunity to visit our house. c'est finir. dah siap:) . jalan je tak tar lagi. went inside.feel a bit small compared to masa survey rumah contoh kosong dulu. but whatever it is. sunlight exposure is good.x gelap la walaupun rumah intermediate . backyard pun agak spacious. boleh la buat small garden nnt hihi.

x sabar plak nk masuk n decorate rumah. harap ada duit di masa akan datang.
Ya Allah. murahkan lah rezeki kami. amin.

rumah contoh.bkn rumah koi.gambar pinjam from internet.

gambar hiasan

it's been a while since i last wrote . i guess today i want to discuss about work. again. can you believe my odd , getting THREE  MAS* with PPHN** in THREE consecutive oncalls! i just shook my head in disbelief. may be God wants me to learn tip top in managing pphn. one survived one died and one is still battling. May Allah save this one too...

if you think about it, labour is a very risky phase in pregnancy.It can be tragic. some children grow well in utero with no complication at all, ready to get out of the womb. but, because of complications such as prolonged 2nd phase due to various reasons, commonly poor maternal effort in pushing, or cord prolapse,  or sudden placental abruption, they  end up with severe asphyxia , with sequalae or even death. the same goes to those baby who passed meconium ( poo) in utero (which happened alot) . at the very moment they are about to come out, a few number of them swallowed and aspirated the meconium into their lungs, causing blockage in gas exchange therefore compromised breathing.
i can't help feeling sorry for the parents. they surely have imagined a better , more cheerful life with a new member in their little family, but end up in sorrow and grief because of one unfortunate event during labour.  it would be different if things have already been anticipated long before labour. atleast they are mentally ready..

alas, this is life. i'm glad i could be at the other end. trying to save these babies. most of the time it was not apreciated at all, which is fine as we do get the satisfaction solely  by resucitating and managing them without their parents thanking. it just that sometimes these people went overboard by complaining of petty things added with false statements that makes me think, your child was almost dead and he survived well  after much effort to revive him from going 6 feet under  and you are still complaining?? ungrateful cows you are.

* meconium aspiration syndrome
** persistent pulmonary hypertension of newborn

Heaven waits

I remember the faces and names of all the blessed children that passed away while under my care. I kissed everyone of them. The latest was today. God loves you. I love you too.

The prime lecture

Had a nice chat with my big boss yesterday morning, about so many things. Mainly of my future plans. The conclusion by the end of the day was to be in this field required one to be an independent, strong willed superwoman. I love what I am doing at the moment. Big chance Id persue neonatalogist as sub specialty. Long time down the line there is. Who knows I d choose a different path. Not yet at the crossroad. Inshallah will write More properly later. Haven't logged in for quite a while. Am on call currently. Waken up by a phone call for resuscitation of a non vigorous baby. Primary apnea perhaps. Was fine by 1 minute. But now I can't sleep!-

we are 3

in 20 minutes we'll be celebrating our third anniversary. only that we are currently 120 km apart :( but am positive still ! hoping for a lovely hubby-wifey anni-dinner tomorrow night! can't wait!! ;-) BONNE ANNIVERSAIRE  husband. we have been married for 3 years! 3 wonderful years with one adorable son:) more to come inshaallah. may we live happilly ever after in health, in wealth, in peace , in love :)

un macaron presque parfait

mesdames et messieurs, voila! my first baked macaron. this was my 2nd try. the first attempt was last year which eventually turned into a cake.  tastewise, the almond flavour were too strong, would prefer it to be more chocolate-ish. next holiday nak cuba lagik.

oh, walaupun agak x berpuas hati dgn macaron ini, tp rase bersemangat balik bila hubby ckp sedap . hohoho

les macarons de france

hari ini bercita2 nak baking. lbih bersemangat lpas tgk MC aussie london edition!:D  bonne chance a moi!

777

today marks the 4th year of our engagement anniversary. Up and down together, only to nurture a more solid relationship day by day. thank you for being the loving husband and father as you are now ;X;X

bored

i feel like watching a french film. but I have none downloaded at the moment.

i don't like oncall during weekend. sigh :(

The day Red Rose met Snow White

Princess Rouge Babylone and Princess Blanc Banquise

opening the coupe

Went for a car detailing service yesterday and (for a second time) I saw a Bianca White 308 coupe cabriolet! this time in a  much closer range, in fact I got to touch it! hahaha jakun jap:D 

Royal Weekend

Congratulation Prince William. The wedding was epical.  ternganga tengok :D

Amis

I thought losing a friendship was quite manageable. well it is manageable. but I cannot forever hold back this one big inner thought that is screaming to know the reason WHY?


By the way, Happy birthaday Aja ! My April born colleague ;-)  No, my friendship with Aja is still steel-hard intact :D

harris et maher zain 2.0

coming to term

I don't know about you, but I only began to feel like a full grown adult after I started buying properties. I still felt young when i first get married, feeling a bit more mature after I found out I was pregnant, motherly after Harris was born, but still more or less clinging to parents / other family members. but now, as we began to deal with those people like sales advisers, corporate lawyers, bankers and stuff - on our own... , I can't help but feeling.. nervous, whenever I have time to think deeply about it.  I am becoming the adult that  I previously, only observed. Now , I am one of them.

I really really hope both me and husband could be  great parents to Harris ( and hopefully his later siblings ).

no turning back. we are adults now.

gwyneth go gleek

you know I was no longer liking glee due to overstrecthed gay and jew highlights.. but then they invited gwyneth to their show.. i love this version so much. u hit it right gwyn!