Wednesday, July 22, 2009

c'est pas trop tard pour le change

sometimes i wonder if i had made a right choice by being a doctor. I am not so happy with my given tasks most of the time for now, but something is telling me I'm gonna be grateful and delighted to be where i will be eventually. i really pray my intuition would turn out right.
why i don't like it much for now?

well, first of all i hate being bossed around - i don't mind specialists - but i hate unnecessary orders by the seniors ( especially if they are just the budding ones - mengade nak mampus) and utterly hate it when it comes from the nurses. man i hate that. i love my current head of department. she's like an angel seriously. a very rare quality for a Malaysian specialist ( who thinks superiority is compulsory to be displayed in every possible channels they could think of- an attitude that rarely worn by the mat saleh Irish specialists i believe. my H.O.D would defend us the mere housemen from stupid complaints notably coming from a few particular Sisters ( one is a serious bitch) anda handful of idiot plus ignorant nurses. uhhh i totally love it when she threw back the dung right onto their snub faces warghaahahaha! and if it was not for her, i doubt i could be flying to Paris for - what most of my friends called - our second honeymoon. i m not really sure what honeymoon supposed to mean exactly; i mean we've been married for almost a year - but yes i think i did suffer honeymoon cystitis afterward :P

secondly, the on-calls. i don't appreciate a series of disturbed sleeps let alone sleepless nights! what even bothers me is how frequent they are. My husband did voice his concern that i wont be around much for him considering numerous monthly on-call nights. we haven't been staying together yet since i started my housemanship. so i honestly don't know how exactly it's gonna be.but i seriously want to work it up to maximise my time with him - if it be within my power. in a way i am very delihgted with the outpouring of new housemen we are currently experiencing- less burden and hopefully less on-calls! ( less calls equals to less extra allowances but then again i am not willing to sacrifice the 3 quarters of my time for the sake of the job. i need time for family and for myself - a right that is deliberately overlooked by the current system.) stop complaining why freshly graduated docs prefer to work oversea : other than the pay, it's the system! doc's welfare are much better taken care of. u know what's the standard line our superiors always like to remind us? we've been through hell and so should you. and oh this is the best part - coming from a deputy state health director during my induction course : a fellow houseman raised a question ; what is the channel for us to voice out our disapproval had we been ill-treated by the superiors. you wanna know what his answer was? - i swear i couldn't believe my ears- ; there is none. just deal with it - very evil-sounded yet the most honest answer i have ever heard.

so far my defense mechanism still works in an acceptable range though it has been edgy many many times :$ :$.. but the best one came from a psychiatrist (no, surprisingly i'm still sane. i met her during a general meeting, not a session :P ). i really now hold on to that to survive work : she said - just remember that everytime you attend to and treat a patient, you will be rewarded big time by the Almighty- even by just smiling at them.

they keep reminding us to work sincerely as well, which i fully agree. but they need to understand that being sincere and being overworked is two different situations. to be sincere is my duty but to get a proper time off is my right!

there you have it.



lucky enough to attend the eiffel tower's 120 years celebration. they cracked a total of 15 thousands fireworks for the event and it was a pure genius and brilliant set of fireworks! like a toddler behind us exclaimed; c'est beau!!! i was suffocating in the sea of people but totally forgot about the hypoxic breathing once the show began. to my beau, merci bien. i hurt you a lot i know, but you are the best thing i have ever had. there are loads of sacrifice you made on my course and i want you to know i acknowledge and appreciate every one of them. i love you and can't wait to have you home!!! baby i love you;X

9 comments:

~Serenity~ said...

muna..my sista keeps complaining the same thing.she said belfast hospital is wayyy better.tak tahan ngan senior yg berlagak nak mampos.n it has been a tradition to bully juniors.ada gak the seniors yg sama gred (U41, i mean)tp sebab dah lama keje so boleh tujuk 'act' la kat juniors.so as the nurses.

i thought my sis hospital is the worst, rupenya mana2 gov hospital kat msia ni pun sama je kot.

sabar n chill je muna. ingat jela pekerjaan itu satu ibadah..huhu.

cherie said...

some of them r really pain in the u know what. mmg same je seme hospital. i hope my generation would start a change ; too get rid of the orthodox mentality. hohoh. hows baby doing?;-)

~Serenity~ said...

baby doing ok.tapi blom ada sign of kicking yet.hehe.

arie:) said...

salam muna..kat paghis ke ni?

Ninie said...

Salam Muna,

Memang geram kalau kita berada ditempat tu. Sabar yek Muna.

cherie said...

aja : quickening usually starts slightly later for first baby;-) be patient:P

arie : havent heard from u for ages! i was. just for a brief trip. have u gotten ur neverfull by now? sorry i didnt alarm you of my leaving this time ;S totally 4got bout it.x bgtau org sgt pn. anyway, di mase akan dtg im thinking of owning one myself, but perhaps ill go for toile damier's. tp buat mase ini angan2 di siang hari saje la:P

ninie : thanks ninie. mmg sabar je pn y mampu. .at least i wont be houseman for ever, but the nurses will always be one hohohoh.

zaihana said...

sabarlah muna..nasihat psychiatrist tu sebijik sama dengan nasihat yang ana bagi kat kome, buat kerja kerana Allah, insyaAllah, semua cabaran, dugaan, dapat diatasi dengan lapang dada.. (walaupun sakit je rasa)..

nuni said...

So far so good for me (despite being 'allergic' to a few MOs and HOs) but i heard that it's like hell in another department (one that is usually labelled as relatively relaxed posting in other hospitals). I heard that there was a birthday party recently and HOs were invited... ONLY to serve food.

I'm definitely going to miss my current HOD once I change posting. She has a reputation of being one of the most 'garang' HOD around but she's actually very nice. She's like a mother to all of us. :)

cherie said...

it wasnt that bad in OnG actually. i sort of miss the team. except for the sister and a few nurses i (anonymously) mentioned. i do like the MOs by the second half of the posting, as they began to treat you like a friend rather than an inferior. its HOD is no doubt the nicest specialist alive in the hospital of course. im in ortho now and it seems to be much worse. not the docs but the nurses and perhaps the working system. ortho definitely can afford to give their housemen a weekend off more than just once a month. i wont get any for this month though :(