Friday, December 28, 2007

troubled pakis

Bhutto Assassinated.

Shocking but not unexpected.

i'm not an expert in Pakistan Politic. i drew my conclusion based on the news i heard everyday and my personal encounters with Pakistanis. to me they are volatile in nature, poor in judgment, minimal in tolerance, severely corrupt, manipulative, parasited by the extremism bigots and mostly intellectually deprived. before you oppose my view, please justify all the riots, bombings, unsettled domestic conflicts, dubious US relationship, and fanatical act of idolising corrupted politicians.

who killed her?
one (or more) of these three ;

Bin Laden (representing the deviated extremists) , Musharraf ( aka the fellow local politicians) , or Bush ( i.e. the west)

ironically, when one of the three do something to benefit them, it will ALWAYS benefit the other two as well. so, it doesnt matter much who did it. Perhaps a little bit tough for Musharraf, despite his victory to invalidate the power-sharing scheme ( now that the future sharer dead) , i wonder how is he going to handle the inevitable violences that knocking his door at this very moment.

i must admit things are much complex and murkier than my simple conclusion. but then again, you've gotta agree that something is very not right in that community structures ,which is phenotyped by their failure to settle down peacefully ever since the separation from India.

well, kindly ponder the rest..

alhamdulillah negaraku aman lagi.. seriously, praise be to Allah for the peace i enjoy.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

simple life

the past two days was lovely.
my mother and and I has begun surveying for give-aways and flowers .
We also has chosen a theme :) let us keep it to ourselves for now.

cik abg kat nonsy pe cter la harini. tidur lagi la tu:P haihhhh

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

jerit senyap senyap ok:P

Heard Silent Scream's malay single 'bidadari' in hot f.m. yesterday afternoon ( while in a friend's car). i was like 'aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh' that's my classmate playing that very drum. congratulation Andrew! you're a rock star now hehe.

p/s : don't be a poptart yeah :P

he won't

jose M won't come back ( sighhh)

Thursday, December 06, 2007

inhumane humanity

An Iranian man has been hanged for rape despite his alleged victims withdrawing their accusation and a judicial decree quashing his death sentence.
Makwan Mouloudzadeh, 20, had been found guilty of raping three teenage boys when he was 13 years old. - bbc

i don't know if this is just one of the western propagandas to catalyse their invasion plan. but if it did happen.. what an outrageous act!! he was a child when he committed the crime for god's sake. thirteen is too young an age to understand the impact of their doings. by God ,how did they justify that verdict? where did they dig that ancient law? it definitely not God's! i cant believe how people can be so low and heartless and plain cruel. hanging that boy was 1000 times a crime than his so called 'sodomising' act. May Allah bless his young soul.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

will he or won't they?

Former Chelsea boss Jose Mourinho would consider the England job if offered it by the Football Association, insists the Portuguese's personal advisor. 'If he were approached he'd consider it, discuss it, negotiate and present his own ideas,' confirmed Eladio Parames. - soccernet

pleaseeeee pleaseeeee come back jose! football is somewhat dull without you. this man is your hope, English!

Sunday, December 02, 2007

toss and turn

last night was torturous. soothed a bit after cheri came home. we dated at place stanislas. virtually of course. watching the fireworks via the webcam sempena la fete de st nicholas. it was.. cute of him to ask me to watch that together.

some of the shots that i print-screened

these two pics are among the shots mon cheri took earlier that day around the festival site area. beautiful really.. proud of your D50 ;)

Saturday, December 01, 2007

exam induced anxiety

this P.O.P.GP exam is really taking its toll on me.
i'm all stressed out, panic , and to a point, ishaemic of hope..
the whole things are just.. asphyxiating :(

i need all sort of lucks and prayers to get through this hard moment. sigh.

cheri, miss your soothing voice like desperately. u r my adrenaline shot for my xm shock .u just r for everything life saving actually. my ventilator. my oxygen. my defibrillator. my beta-agonist and my morphine. and yes, you are very addictive . god knows how bad is the craving part.

Now playing: Keith Urban - [Golden Road #05] You'll Think Of Me [foobar2000 v0.9.4.2]
via FoxyTunes

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

a mon cher

I need you like water, like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy from Heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms, that carries me through
I need you

You're the hope that moves me to courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds rage
And it's so amazin' 'cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
'cause you've brought me too far
and thus, i need you

Thursday, November 22, 2007

it's a suck world after all

padan muka england
padan muka mc laren
padan muka semua org hahahahaha

Wednesday, November 07, 2007


u know what's amazing about Liverpool FC?
when they really wanna do it, the do it big. as in BIG big. to the point whereby history would never forget about it.
that's what happen in champion's league final in istanbul.
that's what happen in a couple of Chelsea matches.
and that's what happen yesterday in Anfield.
who would have guessed an 8-nil win when they were at a brink of being knocked out from the Europe's most prestigious league? huhu. like soccernet put it; it was a 'make or break' clash. they opted for both fates in the end. they made it through , and they broke the champions league's all-time scoring record. wuhuhuhuhu.

liverpool is such a drama queen i know. but a really entertaining one. and that's one of the reasons why i love them!

congratulation !!! do it more often ;-)

Sunday, November 04, 2007

tuna in the brine

Love is like a mustard seed;
planted by God
and watered by men

- Muda Saint Michael -

hope we watered ours well.
pic from his latest batch of collection. love it.

Friday, November 02, 2007

love it, lick it :)

yesterday, i fatefully reunited via online with my lower form's best buddy. it's been years since i last heard from her. the last time we met was summer 2004. there was so much to talk about. will catch with you again sometime soon.

and right after that ( well there was super brief moment of overlap ) , i had another mutual chat with another mutual best friend. the one i was close to since my upper form years and until now. it just that now, we are in different career paths, distanced by hundred miles physically which require sacrifice from the need of regular meet-ups and girl-talks moments. time flies, we grow.. i have a mild phobia of getting old huhu.

my whole point is.. i feel wonderful. and things like this always retrieve nostalgias. the two of you made me smile at the end of the day literally :)

i am 97% percent in silverchair mode this week as i am adapting to young modern album. already in love with 3 or 4 songs. i guess they'd never really get me as they did in diorama and neon ballroom.. but it wasn't really that bad anyway. for instance, thieving bird/strange behaviour ( song sandwiched between song) was really creative.

i quite disapprove daniel's new image though. can't help it. i mean, i don't mind he chose to rubbish the pretty boy image and transformed to a more manly look, but the nipple piercings and increasing amount of body tattoos somehow disgust me. i really shouldn't care rite hehe. pe hal la laki imbruglia ni. regarding the explicit body form transformation, I'm not ruling out steroid from the equation just yet huhu.
papehal pun, i love their music! unique sound and words ( even though sometimes i feel like the lyrics were disarticulated and filled with garbage metaphors haha) .. but most of the time, i was really REALLY REALLY amazed by it.

and oh, the video below is like the best live version of 'miss you love' available in youtube. this concert must have been held 5-6 years back. judging by daniel's look, this vid probably was recorded in neon-ball room era. i like it even better than the studio version actually. and i now starts singing/humming the song like this live version tune too hihi.
i admire the lyric but i don't and never want to relate to it. it's not the way i want to love and be loved huhu. after reading my craps all these years, you must have known i'm a hopeless romantic fool at heart hehe.

enough for tonight. enjoy the video. don't bother watching from minute 3.40 onwards.

Monday, October 29, 2007

all about you

i used to love this song so much and all i can think of then was him. i can't thank God enough that he's mine now:) inshaallah.

i love rock and i love cheesy sweet ballad like this too. they're like totally two different worlds. I think I'm a bit weird but hey at least ( i hope) i'm not boring. hehe. perasannya.

ya rabbi , stadi cherie!

Sunday, October 28, 2007

total crap

how come i didn't know??????
how come??
silverchair has an album out after diorama. and hell i just knew it after reading about an aussie award news!
what about daniel john's arthritic fingers? i really hope he didn't get that permanent swan-neck, boteneire deformities and whatnot. what a waste of an unusual talent. i think i like silverchhair coz they are different and very original( at least that's how i believe them to be coz their music to me is one of a kind.)
am listening to their tracks now. but i still didnt get the vibe. perhaps this one is not as good as Diorama. that album was phenomenal. superb.daniel johns seems to have abolished completely his famous boyish look. hmm

at the moment I'm more gravitated toward the 'now playing' song below, than the rest of the tracks in the album.

welcome back silverchair=)

ouch i'm supposed to study paed cardiovascular system instead of this!!

Now playing: Silverchair - Reflections Of A Sound (album : young modern)
via FoxyTunes

Thursday, October 25, 2007

les reves du beau

if i could have one of these beautiful rose bouquet...

and fresh flowers and petals decoration such as these..

it will ALMOST (as there are still other things i very much desire to have;)) )be a perfect wedding for me ;)

Monday, October 22, 2007

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Myspace Graphics - I Love You

my homophobic outcry

Did Dumbledore, who believed in the prevailing power of love, ever fall in love himself?

"My truthful answer to you... I always thought of Dumbledore as gay. [ovation.] ... Dumbledore fell in love with Grindelwald, and that that added to his horror when Grindelwald showed himself to be what he was. To an extent, do we say it excused Dumbledore a little more because falling in love can blind us to an extend, but he met someone as brilliant as he was, and rather like Bellatrix he was very drawn to this brilliant person, and horribly, terribly let down by him. Yeah, that's how i always saw Dumbledore. In fact, recently I was in a script read through for the sixth film, and they had Dumbledore saying a line to Harry early in the script saying I knew a girl once, whose hair... [laughter]. I had to write a little note in the margin and slide it along to the scriptwriter, "Dumbledore's gay!" [laughter] If I'd known it would make you so happy, I would have announced it years ago!" - J K Rowling

no rowling, i am dejectedly not happy. what a blatant disrespect to such a marvelous character! Dumbledore is not gay!!!

ouch la la france

France is destined to be first lady-less ( or first gentleman-less) this term. even if Sagolene Royale won.

serve you right Sarko. hate you n love this bit of news about you hahahahah

pinjam gambar ye hunn;-))

Friday, October 19, 2007

wheeling around

how i'm feeling today?

a mixture of everything.

i'm ashamed
i'm gratefulllll
i'm dissapointed
i'm calm
i'm sad

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

life filled with love ~ a bliss!

this year's eid was wonderful for me.
i really feel at home. home at heart. i love family get-together. it's really fun. especially if your grandparents have 30 mine ;))
we had an annual grand paternal side family meeting on second syawal.our main big family remains rooted to my great grandparents instead of to my grandparents. my grand pa has 10 siblings. so we have a really huge number of membership huhu. anyway, they are planning for a family day on December first. i'll be on the verge of my end of posting exam by the time =( hate it.
the only thing that missing this raya, was cheri.. how i missed you on first syawal.

Looking foward to celebrate raya with my future husband;-)

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

10/10/07 : 9.21p.m.

'this is a small step for me but a giant leap to the malaysian citizens. ' - Sheikh Muzaphar

hmm perhaps he meant differently but i interpreted that as a statement with a sense of excessive self-pride if not arrogance.
ahh well, i was admittedly co-nervous during the take off ( i unawarely recited the traveler's prayer as the rocket propelled from the ground!).
and did you guys watch the live broadcast from KLCC just now? that particular TV3 correspondent whose interviewing the NASA representative was such a not-supposed-to-happen blunder!

first he incorrectly pronounced Sheikh Muzaphar the gay great as sheikh mustafa SEVERAL TIMES.

Second he unbelievably uttered to that american the word 'asngkasawan' instead of 'astronaut' while proposing a question about the apparently 'beloved' Malaysian first ASTRONAUT. (u cant deny the favouritism since the beginning. poor the-other-guy.)

and thirdly, the most unforgiven one was , while thanking the american for allowing himself to be interviewed, he actually said this ; ' Captain Robert.. bla bla.. from the nasa , i think... ' I THINK? I THINK? I THINK???????
Hello, he's like the VVVVVIP of that grand banquet, flown all the way from the NASA headquarter for that particular event; went to space 5 freaking times and u dare say I THINK? GOsH u so unqualified to be representing TV3. Farid Ridzwan, fire him now!

The sheikh is also expected to be hosting a celebratory party in the light of observing the eid. party as in meals-and-chit chatting rather than alcohol-and-dancing sort.that's cool. and yeah, i hope he didn't forget about the experiments he brought along too.

Still cant believe he's an orthopaedic M.O

and oh this is the most interesting part :

His ( muzaphar) visit to the station (ISS) was agreed as part of Malaysia's billion-dollar purchase of Russian-made jets. - BBC

it costs our tax payers 3.4 billion dollars to get one Malaysian experienced the outer space for 9 days. hmm well at least there are 1 dozen and half jets as consolation prizes hehe.

to the space and beyond!!

Allah the Al mighty!

Now playing: Josh Groban - You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)
via FoxyTunes

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

chrocker cracking up

becoz of this video, this gender confused gay is now more famous than 'Unfitney' herself.

and he's enjoying it.

the impact of worldwild wide web evolution

Monday, October 01, 2007

j m sens seule

missing a lot of people. hope they do too.

Thursday, September 27, 2007


damn the stupid osce questions


take a look at minute 3.45-635 scene

ahh le adder noir.. - dem the boring trousers hua hua hua
anti french jokes by english and vice versa is just so cute!

oh and the God's food chain part was hillarious! baldrick, u are the funniest junk ever!
bonjour monsieur- sod offf !!


Tuesday, September 25, 2007


utusan malaysia ni mmg xde berite ke ape.
mahathir kenyit mate pun nak report ka?
kut ye pun relevan la sket.

ahmadinejad is 'the man of the week' kot mggu ni hehe

holoucoust was a horrible thing. but i think he's right to say it has been 'abused by Israel' to justify and manipulate palestine and the whole world. just like how the abuse the term 'antisemitic' to any body that disputes their views. stigmatizing as if that person was a racist or something.

they are the arrogant and manipulative bastards through and through. never skip a generation Since Moses' time.

they are zionists. and by that, im labeling a stigma on them. you should do the same.

i do not for forget the Invasion 60 decades ago. the zionist bastards are brainwashing and modifying people's memory into believing that Israel is there by magic. like it has always been there.

the holocoust left-overs actually TERRORISED the then temporarily peaceful Middle eastern countries and suddenly claimed Palestine + part of lebanon was theirs! and yes BLOOD were spilled. they didn't come in peace. They INVADED. They terrorized others' territories. and they are worse than the Germans, The Russians, The english and even the Japanese. these troops invaded and retreated. but well, guess what ? Zionists never left. you were exiled from there for God's sake, by God HImself! God, u zionists are so condemned to hell. u went against your God's order.

Monday, September 24, 2007

time waster

remember the French guy who did the acrobatic break dance crossing jets of lasers in ocean's 12?
i like that background music.
And very recently i heard it again backgrounding a chattering DJ in her radio programme.
Guess what channel that was?



this is not the first time the radio station kantoi with me. two years ago, i caught them playing an arabic song of which its content isn't theological at all. it was a sad love song. how did i come to know? no i'm that that flair in the language to understand its meaning. but i was in the Middle east a year or two before that, and that particular song was like ten-weeks chart topper in the arab world. even i eventually learnt to love that song haha. i still do. it just that i cant find it online, coz i don't know how to spell it. sigh.

oh by the way, that guy in the pic, his name is Vincent Cassel. Monica Belucci's hubby ( that hot Matrix babe) . ring the bell aa? :p typical.
and the particular background music i'm referring to, is currently the background song of my lovely blog-bliss ~(~^)~

ok im gonna doze off

Now playing: [Gerrald De Palmas] tellement
via FoxyTunes

Saturday, September 22, 2007


been editing my fiance's scenery picture. and deliberately want to put it here =D.
today moreh kuih lapis at state mosque. i joined the tarawikh prayers almost every night since the beginning of ramadhan alhamdulillah. the mosque is very near my place for one thing, and the coolest part is it is well equipped with air conditioning system! bahagia sungguh solat ku. hehe

jose's brightside

au revoir..
u spiced epl well..
it's gonna be a bit less interesting without 'the special one'

sorry, it doesn't work on you

oh god.. signs of increase irritability is there
i was browsing several friendster pages and i was feeling very nauseous looking at some of the pictures and their captions. especially those girls and guys who self-captured their photos and then put on captions like ' oh look at my eyes, so baggy from oversleeping' when their actual silent caption was ' see how brilliant that contact lenses enhance my feature. i look fabulous!'
or something like 'i wanna go home:(' with the gloss painted lips-muncung gesture. that's probably just rm9.90 lipice anyway.hahah. Gosh u inapropriately narcisistic people please give me a break! want desperately to be stylish go ahead but please cut off the goody-two-shoe part. u think it's cute just say it or leave it captionless! well , i think it's quite ok to put 3 4 self-cap pics if u wanna, but if it's like up to 40-70.. i don't know bout you, but i feel like throwing up projectile vomitus seriously.

i am really mean am i not? im quite surprised myself. i guess i am just highly irritable at the moment. and these struggling to look good gits really annoyed me to the max right now. haha.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

whiny git

"In Fernando's mind, there is the firm belief that our policy, whereby each driver receives equal treatment, does not properly reflect his status as world champion," Dennis said.

"He bases this assertion on the fact that his experience and knowledge and what came to him from his former team is such that he should receive an advantage."

Goddd how i hate whining guy..
Go rookie Hamilton! be the next Schumi!!

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Brit Brit!

Britney Spears Lost the custody battle against ex hubby Kevin Federline.
Poor Brit
well, she's been alleged of obnoxiously ( rather idiotically) smoking, stoning herself, getting drunk and making out in front of her two sons . that's soooo beyond the tolerated threshold of motherhood! ! she's soo not right up there i can bet.
that's not all, witnesses claimed she didn't even bother to change the babies' diapers. shouting profanities at them ( imagine!) when they physiologically cried. here's a piece of news for you brit, guess what? Babies cry! that's what they do. furthermore their butts are wet! i just cant believe this woman. i remember reading a simon cowell's quote in a magazine condemning Britney of her life-is-a-mess whining. wait a mo ... i'll go n surf the web for it. should be here somewhere. it should hehe.
ah ok here it is :
"She can't handle the tension and the pressure. Lock the door, don't go out with your stupid friends, have some home-cooked food, get a sense of reality. Go lie in the garden, OK? And then say to yourself, `There's more good in my life than bad. I'm still a rich, talented girl - now I want to get my career back on track.' End of story."

hahaha. seconded, simon. can't agree more!

back to the custody story. i don't trust k-fed triple more than i don't of britney. why? he's obviously wants the kid for the money! look at him. he was never fatherly. clubbing every night and i'm sure he does more drugs that britney. they have a prenup that britney are to give Kevin 15 K dollars had he gained custody. i think the boys belong to the welfare people. even your grandma doesnt seem fit to look after you guys. she's way too plastic!

am gonna stop gossiping now hehe. been surfing a hollywood juicy gossip blog these few days. and that's how Britney popped in here hehe. she sucks, but she successfully made everybody curious to know more about her. especially after the disastrous come-back performance at MTV music award last week...
again, poor Britney Spears ;P

Friday, September 14, 2007

our memorable quote

tu es mon joie, mes jours, ma nuit, ma lune, ma soleil et tu es mes aubes claires

Thursday, September 13, 2007


first day puase hujan je. alhamdulillah x ltih sgt...

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Ramadan reruns

been visiting his site for the past 1 year. this guy is good. his short sitcoms really crack me up most of the time.but he overdid the jokes several times too i must say hehe. still, i like it and he definitely earns my respect.
so guys voila! Here comes Ali reminding us in case we forgot

and last but not least, Ramadhan is just hours away! happy Ramadhan to all

p/s : thinking of buying that so much talk about current bestseller ; I AM MUSLIM by Dina Zaman. hmm perhaps i should just spend whole half day in borders this weekend and finish the reading there. jimat duit kn hehe..

Monday, September 10, 2007

love and loss

today is my mother's birthday!!

i only gave her a card. but a meaningful one.
i love her more and more each day. really.

mommy, i love you and happy birthday.

oh my mom shares birth date with my 5 year old cousin Izzat too. He was expecting a birthday bash with his fellow kindergarten classmates. he's been daydreaming about it whole week! will call my grandma later to ask her about this hehe.

izzat izzudin , happy birthday too;-) you're cute in your own way.

the downside is, i just lost a distant relative whom i was very close to last friday. will blog about it later as for now i have to finish my slides presentation for tomorrow's tutorial. a bientot!

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Footie crap

Steven Gerrard is injured.
Benitez urged England to rule him out of England squad.
Mc laren refused. hinted on giving the talismanic skipper a pain-killer injection.
English FA seemingly is backing him up.
Crazy England and Mclaren
i thought Sven Goran Ericson was bad. Steve Mc laren is worse.

Now playing: Katie Melua - Call off the search [foobar2000 v0.9.4.2]
via FoxyTunes

Thursday, August 30, 2007

pen down your feeling

Hey there baby
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Hey there baby
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me
Someday we'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all

Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
baby I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same

Hey there baby..
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there baby here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

i wish i could write songs..
i wish i could play instruments.. sigh..
sometimes i just need to break down over my long distance relationship to feel okay again.
well..sometimes, i break down over nothing at all coz i'm simply girlishly pathetic.

im more like self consoling myself through this song rather than dedicating. heheh.

i just feel like i could relate to it. relate A LOT to it.
i don't think cheri has heard it before. so that's good. he'd listen it fresh.

i miss you ..2 more years n you'll be done with school

Now playing: Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah [foobar2000 v0.9.4.2]
via FoxyTunes

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

obstetric and gynaecology

i am undergoing an 8-week obstetric and gynaecology rotation at the moment, currently in week 4, the second busiest of 4 rotations after paediatric (which comes next). huhu. i have to really focus on this one i think. not that i want to be a gynaecologist ( it's fun but, the rocket high medico legal suit rate in this particular sub-specialty, kinda turn me off:P ) , but it would affect my degree(s) cosmetic effect.

if i manage to complete my study course ( God Willing! ), my degree would go like this ;


MB for the medical degree (Medicinæ Baccalaureus - Bachelor of Medicine)
BCh for the surgical degree (Baccalaureus Chirurgiæ - Bachelor of Surgery)
BAO for the Obstetric degree (Baccalaureus in Arte Obstetricia -Bachelor of the Obstetric Art)

Hence, i really have to strive hard for this one coz it's part of the degree! Obstertric degree will be the decider whether i am to be awarded general honours or not if i ever be in the situation where i only manage to do really well in either medicine or surgery and badly in the other.
all i got to do is pass the whole thing actually. but still, it'd be great to pass with flying colours right? futher more.. this is the medical course.

moi : so should i book the ticket? i'm a bit phobic to take a bus at time like this. one accident after another..
mom : how much?
moi : mm about this much..
mom : ok then , book it before it's too late.
moi : are sure it's ok, isn't it too much?
mom : never mind, just make sure u get honours in your medical degree ( referring to the three degrees)
moi : mm mom,come to think of it, i think i'll just book a one way ticket returning here. i'll go check the bus ticket balik raya first thing tomorrow morning.promise;)
mom: x bahaya ke?
moi : pray for me and wish me luck.

dan mak bagi hint suh berjanji2 ni takut la sket tak tertunai huhu. i ll try nonetheless. muahx. love you mommy.

just came back from the bus station. tiket bus x kuar lg. kene tunggu puase br leh book. (sigh)

Monday, August 27, 2007

Triage : what's your priority?

Prince Andrew of England aka the Duke of York, is expected to attend Malaysian 50th Merdeka celebration this Friday. Walla Vache uh la la la for that.

But. there will also be another important event, which should have been more significant to him i suppose, on that very same day ; a memorial to mark the 10th anniversary of Princess Diana's death. i suppose, as a former brother in law, it'd be more appropriate for him to attend the memorial rather than this quite unrelated event.. ah well, yeah we did obtain the freedom from the British and all, but i still don't see the point. we might as well have Camilla Parker Bowels Bowles ( who is now a Duchess of Cornwall) to come over instead of the Prince.hehe. She won't be attending the memorial either, to avoid arousing controversial scene apparently. everybody knows Diana blamed Cammy for her and charles' Marriage fall-out. old story.

speaking of Lady Diana, i actually miss her. not that i adore her or what, it just that, i found her life fascinating to observe. as a kid and a young teen, i love reading her stories. how she grew up from a naive girl next door to a fashion icon who stirred controversy everywhere she went and in everything she did! i was so shocked when i first heard of her death. a trace of grief too i should say. i remember compiling a scrap book of her during a school holiday not long after her death, which was approved by me mom ( she, like me, loved to follow Diana's story too). nonetheless, Let bygone be bygone..

teringin nk g kt tunnel Pont d'Alma kat paris tu huhu. x terpikir la plak dulu2. but i ve been to the Ritz hotel's entrance ;-) hihi.

for all fellow Malaysian citizen - be grateful of who and what you are - it took me 12 years to become one (i can't thank my mom enough for all her efforts) . i may not like the politicians, but i do love my country.

pic 1 : Prince Andrew's n Sarah Ferguson's wedding - split long time ago though.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

that's love

"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it..."

i chanced upon this quote at a friend's friendster profile page. fell in love with its beautifully articulated yet deeply meaningful saying that content nothing but truth in each of its word.
i pray to God to guide me and my loved ones all the way through while shepherding this great and miraculous endeavoring journey of life..

almost 10 days have passed since i last dated my fiance online. am constantly thinking of his well being which leaves me to become poignantly restless. he is on a 14-day summer trip right now. he has always loved picturesque places ; a topic that so far never fail to enliven his mood - apart from photographic latest gadgets :p:p. Am glad to have met and known him this far.cos right now i feel so at ease to savour son amour and bask in it.

By the by, i am way too much indebted financially to my parents currently huhu. jahat tul jpa nih. i usually do get some allowances from my parents, but not entirely depends on it until very recently. am so grateful to have you guys around and even more indescribably grateful that i am loved unconditionally by my family no matter how vain and hopeless i am in return. huhu.muahxxxxx.

alas, piles of books and dossiers await to be read(sigh super heavily). until next time, bye bye.
Now playing: Jason Wade - You Belong To Me
via FoxyTunes

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Me against the music;)

i'm in a boredom-stricken phase at the mo. and thus i give myself a completely time-wasting task to undo the dullness.

music or sport?

rock or hip hop?

ballad or pop?
almost of same category. i'm more inclined to choose ballad though. pop is what catchy. that's it.
i love pop music too.sigh.

RnB or techno?
hate both genres

fav rock band?
MUSE (as endorsed by 'the killers' during EMA 2005)
The calling ( Alex band's vocal is electrifying!)
The Killers (lurve the first album), 2nd one hancush already hehe
Butterfingers;) ( hihi)
green day
sixpence none the richer? a rock band x? hehe

Fav Punk band?
blink 182
sum 41
simple plan
linkin park (punk rock kn?) leh la layan gk kdg2
not avril though. she's a poptart ( mr pordox la kate:P )

Fav alternative rock?
i really can't differentiate this rock subgenre from the main one.
muse is categorised in alternative rock i was told... then muse la:P
'third eye blind' can fit in or not?

fav heavy metal?

Fav boyband?
Maroon 5
A1 (hehe)
these bands and their poppy harmony music really left a mark on my highschool era.not just mine, but the whole late 90s female teens' too i should say. come on girls, don't deny it. u loved their cheesy songs too back, swallow that fact in. hahaha.

Fav oldies?
yesterday once more - the carpenters
let it be - the beatles
bee gees'
fly me to the moon - frank sinatra ( love westlife version better. in fact i love almost all of westlife oldies covers ;) )
can't take my eyes off you - dennis van hauten
it must have been love - roxette

Fav female artist?
Celine Dion! - that lady is an alien
old days' Mariah carrey. now she's too much a soldout.
Teenage Bambi Britney ( and not the b**chy britney she is now huhu) love her 1st n 2nd album till now.
mandy moore

Fav male artist?
emmanuel moire
Jason Wade
Yusuf Islam
Keith Urban
Gerrard De Palmas
Alex Band
Zain Bikha
James Morrison
richard marx
brian adams
byk lg kot tp x ingat.

Fav country singers?
Keith Urban
Rascal Flat
Dixie chic

Fav RnB ?
not a fan

Fav HipHop?
will skip this too.

Fav classical?
Il Divo?
kenny G?

Fav jazz?
ermm buble maybe?
im not accustomed to jazzy music.

Fav techno?
yarkssssssss. it's not even music! get lost Moby n frens:P:P

Fav evergreen ?
you belong to me - jason wade
makin' memory of us - keith urban
je fais the toi mon essentiel - emmanuel moire
une seule vie - gerrard de palmas
season in the sun - westlife
unintended - muse
jenny was a friend of mine - the killers
stigmatized - the calling
never let you go - third eye blind
i miss you - incubus
what's my age again - blink 182
macy's day parade - green day
now and forever - richard marx
i want it that way - Backstreet boys
big machine - goo goo dolls
love you more - celine dion
run - snow patrol

Fav (current) hitz?
everything - michael buble
grace kelly - mika
lollipop - mika
wait for you - elliot yamin
pieces don't fit anymore - james morrison
tout les secrets de ton coeur - celine dion

currently listening to?
sorry seems to be the hardest word - by richard marx n kenny G

Fav Sport?

Fav sport man?
Roger Federer

Fav sport women?
gymnasts kot. hehe

Soccer or Football?
retarded betul amerika nih. i love football in context that is understood by the whole world population except the Americans.

Basketball or Baseball?
nevermind. not interested.

snooker or bowling?

tennis or golf?
tennis of course

badminton or squash?
badminton perhaps. u classy people would opt for squash, wouldn't you? :P

panjang lg
malas nk jawab da huhu:P:P

Now playing: Backstreet Boys - Darlin'
via FoxyTunes

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

viannese turns swede

Austrian former kidnap victim Natascha Kampusch says her feelings of pity for her late captor have deepened in the year since she escaped from him.

"I feel more and more sorry for him," Ms Kampusch, 19, said in an interview with Austria's ORF television.

Looking calm, she described Mr Priklopil as a "poor soul - lost and misguided".

extracted from BBC

She caught up that Stockholm Syndrome thing! no idea why the syndrome is called stockholm. most probably, the psychiatrist that observed n studied the ex-hostages' behavioural pattern originates from that city perhaps. but doesn't matter. to have come across such cases is kind of cool. i think Yvonne Ridley must have had that too after the Taleban freed her. not that im complaining.
y?she's a successful and a very guided muslim now. thanks to the 'gliding' imam she described who had given her the holy book.


but well, i dont believe in extremism either. i think the taleban and radical movement in pakistan and certain sekolah pondok kt negare saye ini ( kisas masuk x? hehe :P:P ) is absurd. you do things by force you push people away. you made the women covered every inch of her flesh and then still denying a normal conversation with her is crazy. why do you think we covered our body in the first place? one of the reasons would be to enable a communication as a person rather than as a whatever words that antagonise the meaning of dignity. i remember a visit to a sekolah pondok tahfiz for boys while in highschool. i was from a religious school too, and hence my attire and other girlfriends' were very modest as well. and u know what happened? we weren't allowed to climb out of the bus until they assembled all their students into the school's musalla. y, because we are what they called the 'disturbances to the mind' that will affect their memorising capacity. true, you need a pure and undisturbed minds to memorise every single words of God, but how can you still think that we are 'disturbances' when we have played our parts? and aren't they supposed to be invincible / invulnerable to minor obstacles like this if we 'are indeed' a disturbance ? they were not allowed to read papers and to watch television coz they were a lot of 'naked' women in there. just how unrealistic is that?in stead of repelling and inhibiting things because the bads come in a combo with many good, why dont train their beloved students how to 'ambil yang jernih buang y keruh'? internet is of course out of question la kan.

and oh, instead of giving ALL of us a tour of the school, they decided to take only half of us whom genetic variant is of XY. y XX ni dibawak pegi rumah guru guru, where the wives and education-denied daughters were waiting submissively to receive us. i found it very cruel and unjust not to send daughters to school. .. but that was what happened. and some of the wives are a degree holders.but they, rather stupidly, married these people and be shut into the ragged looking kitchens and very un-homey house condition. entahlah, but i believe that is not how Allah wants you to live your life like. the way im leading my life is quite unfavourable by God too perhaps, but i pray i'd be redirected and guided along the way inshaallah.

heh emo lak. tp serious la x setuju ngn org2 y mentality camni.

suicide bombers pn agak 'bijak' gk. ntah ayat hadis plsu mane die pki y support their stand that it is halal to kill the innocents and vandalise aka mmbuat 'kerosakan di bumi' in order to achieve the greater good of defying 'God's' enemy. off all you know, you are the one. nauzubillah.. one thing about extremism is they think they have the authority to act the way they do on other people when in fact, they don't. they think they have licence to kill,they have licence to kidnap, they have licence to neglect human rights and etc.. all claimed in the name of God. For God's sake, can they stop playing God?

im just saying.. what they are trying to imply will cause more tension rather than peace - the widely talk about bia'h solehah.

alors d'accord. dah. malalutnye bile bace balik. haha. byk lg nk elaborate n komen. tp x larat n malas da nk tulis. daah. :P

Now playing: Celine Dion - Tous Les Secrets De Ton Cour
via FoxyTunes

Friday, August 17, 2007


i was involved in an accident this morning.
slippery road, downhill flyover, sudden break n screeching sound.
my friend didn't bang the car in front of him. he got banged.
i was on the back seat with another girlfriend. slight momentum effect.
the car i was in suffered barely a scratch.
the other car looked pretty bad.
i put on the seat belt straight away right after..

j connais pas

j ne me sens pas bien

Sunday, August 12, 2007

mon baguette poulet

i made a chicken baguette this morning, and surprisingly it tasted quite ok.
feel like sharing the simple recepi here hehe. gatal lak.
i don't care , it's my blog anyway:P la mienne la mienne! :P :P

i rolled a couple of chicken fillet with pepper and small amount of salt, and then steamed it.
Mixed the steamed poulet with mayonnaise and cheese spread and powdered in more pepper.
then i put the baguette filling in the fridge. ( i love when it cold). then i went to have my good night sleep.
next morning i took it out, cut a few slices of onion, chopped a salad leaf into small pieces and mixed them all together. i decided to add a few drops of tomato sauce in the end.
i cut an appropriate proportion of the long French baguette i bought yesterday and sandwiched the fillings in between.
there goes my home made baguette! almost resembling Subway's hehe. whateverr..
okay mahu buat tutorial..

oh, ive seen two full deliveries this week. more to come for the next 7 weeks! and palpated pregnant ladies's bellies like 20 times? huhu. the labour process was quite an experience.. freak me out a bit, but once i saw the babies came out, it sort of washed off the fears quite instantly. but then the aftermath was hmm quite tedious i guess. baby coming-outs aren't the end of it for the moms huhu. well anyway, i just wont let these things bother me that much for now. there's epidural jab for the rescue if i freak out then. haha.

im gonna have a new cousin by this sept! and im missing my one month old cousin too .. haaihhh
i love kid at that age especially. so cute to cuddle. usually when they are 8 months or so, they sort of have this snobbish attitude towards unfamiliar faces which turned me off too. but well, once they build rapport with you, it's fun once again!

okay im off .
Now playing: Michael Bublé - [Call Me Irresponsible] Everything [foobar2000 v0.9.4.2]

Friday, August 03, 2007


my unofficial but pleasurable job these few days at home is a chauffeur. Fetching mom n bros to and fro. love it coz i got to cruise around town and did my leisure-time favourite activity - s.h.o.p.p.i.n.g !! (otherwise I'd have to wait until mom got back from school to gear in productive activities:P) tomorrow however, will be my turn to be chauffeured to t'loh :P kiddin, im more like parasiting mom actually - she will have a meeting in chenor, which is a nearby 'town??'. (shire is the equivalent perhaps.. i dunno what to call it precisely though. my vocab vault needs enrichment!)

i wish my mood was a bit elated than what I'm feeling at the mo. :(

the entry title is attributed to my favourite JKR's HP series character's full name :

Albus Percival Wulfuric Brian Dumbledore

i just love it. it resonates something that it almost royal (you know the royal trend of naming the newborns with a-mile-long names? e.g PrinceWilliam Arthur Phillip Louis for the prince that we unanimously know only by his first name. i very much suspect it has to do with maintaining their royal's status quo)

Albus signifies some sort of power and the 'dont mess around with me' sign.

Percival gaves him the wizardish effect.

Wulfuric sounds almost comical - he is a funny man- but an A-rated and top class kinda funny. but the childish sort of quotes slipped here and there too. i'd never forget his pip pip! and acid pops ;)

Dumbledore - well what can i say. he is totally the opposite of DUMB. never been outsmarted by anybody and yet soo humble ( even though Rita Skeeter vainly tried to ruin that great piece of Dumbledore's memoir) but then , being as he is, he is -in some ways- pretty odd. Like Ron constantly reminded Harry - 'that guy is mental'

oh yeah i almost forgot - i think 'brian' attributes to Dumbledore's coolness and style;)

i am cheered up a little by my own writing.well, everybody needs a mean of channeling things out of their systems, dont you think?

nite everyone.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

painting rewarded its 'femme fatal'

'A woman who says she was so overcome with passion for a valuable painting on display in France, has been charged with criminal damage after kissing it....

The 3x2m (9x6-foot) painting by US artist Cy Twombly is valued at more than $2m (£970,000)...

"I left a kiss," she told La Provence newspaper on leaving the police station.

"A red stain remained on the canvas... This red stain is testimony to this moment, to the power of art."

Speaking to French news agency AFP, she said the artist had "left this white" for her. - bbc

hahahahaha.. this, my friend is what the psychiatrist called the ' Grandiose delusion' . i am almost certain she Got BMD or substance induced mood disorder hehe. femme fatal it is.. quite literally actually to her.she's gonna end up in jail for God sake!

c'east la vie

i have gone through a lot of stuff in recent weeks.

tout d'abord , maintenant, mon cher n'est pas simplement mon cher - il est mon fiance. mon bel amour:) merci mon Dieu.

secondly i have a new cousin whose name is Za'em. i was the first person to whom he smiled at. hihi talk about the unsatisfied look my aunt gave me:P

thirdly , i went to Tg Rambutan! witnessing an interview of a murderer who might escape death sentence by unsound mind excuse. but of course, the probability to be 'imprisoned' in the ward there for life is very much likely.

i collected my copy of the final sequel of Harry Potter (which I pre-booked almost 2 months ago) at Borders by 7.55 am. i saw people before me each holding Borders Plastic bag ( which i bet my laptop, that it contained HP#7 book) and a glass of StarBuck Iced-blended drink. i learnt later that the first 50s will get the free drinks... i must have been the number 52 or 53 buyers that day... had i came five minutes earlier... sigh . anyway, at least i still got a snowy owl miniature.whom i named as Hedwig!! in memory of the real Hedwig apparently... (oppsss) hehe . well, sape suruh tak beli buku awal2:P i don't care slipping out stuff now ahahaha.

im going home this wed. looking forward to. lately, i feel soo attached to my family. and quite frequently homesick. esp towards parents n grans.suddenly i realised they re getting old.. dont like the feeling..

i am currently reading another book too :) given by a person who i now love like my own mom:) to be completed by summer nexr year!!

for all these, and many other things i did not disclose here, i'm happy. yet i'm sad. because he's leaving:(

Saturday, July 14, 2007

love mode

true loves don't find excuses
true loves don't blame
true loves love truly

Thursday, July 05, 2007

a will, a way

arini dpt 1 2 mnde pnjaman untuk diguna kn 1 2 hari lg. mekaseh kt lini n usop ( they are couple :P ) for warmheartedly lending me your camera. xde duit la nk beli sendiri. ely pn da bg set die :P laili will come all the way from penang . am soo touched. miey will be there all the way--> beshnye;))
alhamdulillah, i am still livin within the proximity of lovin n unconditional surrounding..

lupe lk, thanx jugak hadiah percume pnjaman sms from asten tghr td:P

Saturday, June 30, 2007

~Mon essentiel ~

Je sais ton amour
( i know your love)
Je sais l'eau versée sur mon corps
( i know (it like) the water poured over my body)
Sentir son cours jour après jour
( feeling his course day after day)
J'ai remonté les tourments pour m'approcher encore
( I went up the torments to approach more)
J'ai ton désir ancré sur le mien
( i have your desire anchored to mine)
J'ai ton désir ancré à mes chevilles
( I have your desire anchored to my ankles)
Viens, rien ne nous retient à rien
( come, nothin will retain us )
Tout ne tient qu'a nous
( everythin depend on us)

Je fais de toi mon essentiel
( i make you as my essence )
Tu me fais naître parmi les hommes
(u re among the ones who keep me alive)
Je fais de toi mon essentiel
i make you as my essence)
Celle que j'aimerais plus que personne
(That which I would like more than anybody else)
Si tu veux qu'on s'apprenne
( if you want us to know each other )
Si tu veux qu'on s'apprenne

Tu sais mon amour
( you know my love)
Tu sais les mots sous mes silences
( you know the words under my silences)
Ceux qu'ils avouent, couvrent et découvrent
( Those which they acknowledge, cover and discover)
J'ai à t'offrir des croyances
(I have to offer to you beliefs)
Pour conjurer l'absence
(to conjure the absence - i guess to neutralise the long distance?)
J'ai l'avenir gravé dans ta main
(I have the future engraved in your hand)
J'ai l'avenir tracé comme tu l'écris
(I have the future traced as you write it)
Tiens, rien ne nous emmènes plus loin
( look, nothing would bring us further )
Qu'un geste qui revient
( Than a gesture which returns)

Je ferai de toi mon essentiel
(i will make you as my essence..)
Mon essentiel ( my essence)
Si tu veux qu'on s'apprenne
( if you want us to know each other)
Qu'on s'appartienne
(we're part of each other)

Je t'aime vraiment mon coeur ou mon essentiel


you should have watched How Federer superiorly outclassed Safin last night.. especially in the fist two sets. the game he played was phenomenal. the serves, the smashes, the hits, were (almost) all skill-embedded and it was such a beautiful game to watch.

he definitely displayed to the 'super lucky' Wimbledon crowd his know-how in grass court. Poor Safin was unavoidable victimised situationally ..big time huhu. but at least, he got the chance to play at the centre court. if it hadn't been for Federer, he would only have dreamt to play there:P

for federer, i wish you luck for your fifth consecutive Wimbledon Title. chow

The Classical 'Federer's Backhand'

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

for better or worse

The Brownies eventually succeeded in his 13 years effort pursuing his dream post by squashing cherie's cheesy and weary Blairy out of the house of commons.. good riddance
will it be a good reinstallment anyway?
will be reviewed after 30 days..

Saturday, June 23, 2007

nouvelle moi..encore ;)

Blog bliss is once again refurbished .

i personally prefer this new look to the previous ones.

hmm cant wait for tomorrow to dawn in.
not because of the penang bridge marathon , which literally took place at dawn.
i have plenty other reasons to be happy tomorrow. cheri, shopping, la fete, cheri again hehe.
cant control the mushiness. hahaha

penang is indeed very festive..

Friday, June 22, 2007

world music festival


this weekend...
Enfin i may get to walk along the street feeling once again like the ones in dublin or France;))
ahhh ouiiiii j'adoreeeee

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

the beautiful minds

you know,i can help comparing the characters in Heroes with the psychiatric patients. they have most of the signs (especially peter petrelli ;p ) - grandiose ideas ( or should i say grandiose delusions?) such as ' i know im special, that i'm meant for something big, important' or hiro nakamura's concrete believe that he was a real Hero. those psychotic patients presented with symptoms exactly like these characters have. and im not exaggerating. Some even thought they are the latest prophet chosen by God or worse, they think they are God. big trouble to handle there huhu.
if heroes wasnt a fiction, i bet they are no different from those mentally ill people. they believe they can do things that are very bizarre to normal and competent thinking. they 'hear', they 'see' and they 'do' things that are unreal to us. and delusional thoughts like they are some sort of CIA agents are pretty common too.well, it's crazy isn't it. and oh, Prof Suresh in Heroes actually suggested that cockroach is God. who can be crazier than that.

during my umrah trip to mekah 5 years ago, i encountered a lady who claimed to have seen and been followed by a genie, who kept conversing with her, asked her to do things, even proposing to her.i believed her then but now i guess i don't perceive it that way anymore. I'm not saying she's lying. but I'm more prone to believe (fairly strongly) that she was hallucinating. it's really a pity to be in her shoes. because the voices and visuals seemed very real to them.

one more thing that has changed, is my perception towards Jim Carey: i now believe that he truly is a manic or a hypomanic. no one in the 'right mind' can talk as fast and act as bizarre as he does. but come to think of it, many writers, lyricists, poets, artists ARE manics. that's where their outstanding and special talents originate actually. hmmm...
psychiatry is fascinating..

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

internal polemic

i think i ve consumed too much msg that my brain processing are getting critically slower lately..

what i want is what i dont get... yet. (sigh)

i wonder when will Allah punish the ever ungrateful, bullish, merciless zionists? they dont deserve to live the way they are now. God knows how much i reserve hatred for them.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

north american junkies

cant believe Melinda Doolittle was voted out. minah (seemingly) turner syndrome tu is my favourite contestant. i wouldnt care much had her lousy fellow competitor blake was actually a real match to her amazing singing ability, but obviously he wasn't.

wanna buy some cool t-shirts from an 'international' muslim company? check out phatwa factory website . like they said, 'laughing isn't haram. seriously'.

i suddenly realize i have piles of assignments to finish by this week. aduihh... cmne nii:(